Life has ways to remind you of how everything can never be all roses and sunshine all the time. There are times when, no matter how hard you have been trying, you just feel like you have not done enough, you keep falling into an abyss, like you have been put six feet under and nothing can bring you back. Resurfacing seems hard, harder than ever before.
You turn bitter, not that it is an excuse or an escape, and it seems like the best possible solutions for avoiding every situation you are put in. It does not help but makes things more complex and you are left with a big pile of mess to sort out and turns out you are clueless about where to start from.
All of this is coming at a very bad time for me.